I Now Know

     I Now Know                                                     

There is someone out there, who won't face me?
I just don't know.
There is someone out there, someone besides me?
I just don't know.
There is no-one out there, maybe its just me?
You never know.
There is no one out there that will replace me.
This, I do know.

Until that no-one becomes your everything, mind, body and soul.
You stop and drop everything, kindness, caring, and growth.
It didn't happen quick, or fast as some would say.
The process was a slow, natural, form of decay.
I was once that sparkle in your eye. The beat in your heart,
The reason you cried, when we are apart.


When did my face not make you smile.
When did loving me, cramp your style.
When did my hugs, not fill you with love.
When did you stop, the beyond and above.
When did my giggles, not make you laugh.
When did my efforts, not make you glad.
When did my trophy of number one,
become second place.
When did unconditional love,
become a race.

It's when I was no longer, your rush and your high.
Your drive, your desire, your reason to survive.
Your reason to leave in the middle of the night,
Your reason to give me your very last bite.
Your reason to spend your very last dollar,
because I needed milk, medicine or diapers

Now there's someone else, I see them standing there,
Who is it I wonder? Who has captured your stare
Who is this new twinkle in your eye?
Your reason for living, your reason to die.

There is someone out there who won't face me.
This I now know
There is someone out there that has replaced me.
Please let me know
Who that someone is? Why won't you introduce?
The answer for that is, I'm to young to know the truth.


It is  now, that I'm older, I'm not that little kid.
I know what happened, and I know what you did.
I couldn't give you the answer for the why? or for the how?
The same went for you with your "Not here, not now".
I asked you long ago to prevent the way I am feeling at this moment
I couldn't forgive that someone, No room for atonement.
I couldn't believe it took this long for me to come up with an answer,
More like the many reasons, you headed towards disaster

I finally found out the name of that someone you loved
That someone who took away, your spirit and your love.
But, that someone's not a person, No, not a person at all.
That someone is drugs. And I do,
forgive you for it all.

-Anonymous

10/5/2011