June 23, 2012
Dear Mommy,
Hi.......
It''s me, your third daughter, Maritza Perez. Daddy's first child and daughter? The little girl with no middle name? You know? The reason you get up in the morning? Why the sky looks ten shades a brighter blue and the air taste a little sweeter? Why you can hold your head up high and say "that's my baby girl"
You haven't forgotten about how your world would not exist without me, right? How the moment I entered this world, you knew I was destined for something great? I don't think you did. I think your in trouble, Mommy. How else could you have forgotten all the things I've mentioned? Its not something you hang and admire on a wall, store in your albums, or tell your friends about. It's not something you stumble across or hunt down. It is an involuntary, subconscious, Phenomena. It is there from the beginning. It will be there well after the end.
I remember Daddy saying to us. "The love and responsibility I have for you and Alyssia, was given to me the moment I found out I was having a baby. Now. You take that feeling, multiply it by infinity, and you barely scrape the surface of comprehending the feelings I felt the second you entered my world"
It always seemed to be at the exact moment our delicate fragile minds needed to hear it the most.
His words are so powerful. I think he's is doing a great job. You can tell by his profile post, that we are well taken care of. I couldn't imagine my world without him. He is the only person who doesn't always, let me and Alyssia get our way. We try and try. We become stronger with every attempt and learn so much from trying. (Daddy taught us that). He wont be able to handle the both of us, though. As soon as Alyssia starts enunciating more, we will be unstoppable. She is so grown, So sweet, so kind. Shes one special little girl. I'm proud to call her my sister.
Daddy shows us videos on his PS3 of you, all the time. When I was little, like Alyssia. There is also a picture frame hanging in the dining room. Every time we eat, we see our sister Jazmine in her pretty Orange dress, India and Jazmine in the prettiest matching pink outfits, and one of you kissing Alyssia.
She was just a baby....10 months old, I think...but Mommy.
I don't think Alyssia remembers you. A year is a long time.
I remember. I remember your love, I remember the way you held me, the way you spoke to me, The way you called my name, The way you said all of our names....when you were Mommy and you don't have to worry at all. No one has replaced you as our Mommy. Daddy makes sure of that. He says "No one can replace you as our mother.'
Its just Alyssia, Mommy. When your name is brought up she doesn't respond. Daddy asked me one time while we were in the middle of our nightly ritual of brushing our teeth. Oh! We have bubble gum princess tooth paste. Daddy said only princesses brush their teeth with this toothpaste. We're princesses! Back to what I was saying. Daddy asked me if I missed you. I said "I do and I miss Jazmine and India, too.", then I asked Alyssia the same question. She didn't say a word. She did look at Daddy. She looks at Daddy in a different way. Like, he truly is her everything. Her one and only. Daddy knows this. He looked back at her, kissed her on the forehead and said "Don't worry you'll see her one day"
When I ask Daddy what you're doing and where your at?..
Daddy says "Mommy is working on her life, right now. Hopefully, when she's done, she'll come back to see you and Alyssia."
That would be nice...I love you Mommy
Your Daughter Maritza Perez
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