Almost two years ago..to read these again after so long is mind blowing to me. I started writing these memories to store a record of my experiences and those of my baby girls. More so to vent, channel, release, (however you want to put it), these feelings of hopelessness, doubt, anger and frustration. Now I believe my two daughters will get a kick out of these tales, when they grow an interest enough to do so. Until then, I'm glad I can share them with you, enjoy
May 20, 2012
Our Daddy. Our World. They are one and the same. We don't have many years of experience on this planet, but from what we've experienced, our world would not exist, if our Daddy didn't. While we are awake, Daddy gives us all his attention. Even while we sleep, Daddy is busy taking care of our needs for the following day. Daddy says, "Giving a child everything they want is senseless, giving them everything they need is essential." Daddy doesn't think like most-we've heard the phrase "to each his own" and we were taught to know, not everyone thinks the same. For instance, Daddy would say "Individuality is the key to creativity and creativity is the key to progress.". So we ride on that wave of endless creativity and give you our journey, through our trials of failure and achievement, our thirst for the unknown, our happiness, sorrow, joy, anger, frustration and bliss. We do apologize if we offend. We also take credit If we commend.(that rhymed)
We can only copy from a model. An example, right in front of our noses. It doesn't matter who you are, where you came from, what you do for a living, or the way you live your life, it is not a factor, when it comes to mimicking. We observe, we report. Only when the years accumulate and the reflection of your character, personality and identity, give proof to who you really are. Your defects or attributes can now be seen from an outside view. Daddy knows this and that is why, Daddy is our world.
We experience the smallest wonders to the greatest amazement's because of our Daddy. Our curiosity is satisfied only to open room for more. Daddy says "I will always have an answer for you. If not, I will help you to find it." Daddy has a lot to say, which only scrapes at the surface at an explanation of Daddy's constant barrage of words, sentences, paragraphs, pages, books, libraries and his "ancient scriptures of the mind". He takes the time to think "Does this situation call for a mothers sensitivity and compassion?". Though, I think he doesn't practice it as frequently as he should. Most of the time, it's the, stern, aggressive, tones and actions which strike fear and confidence in us. His strength and power shine through that silk cloak, draped across his iron fist. We see through the delicateness, through the gentleness and see our stone of impenetrable force, which stands watch over us, scarred from the mighty blows of hardship and struggle that we did not-excuse me-The hardship and struggle, that he did not, allow us to endure. He magnifies the gratitude and content for the abilities of his six senses, his limbs, appendages, and shines it outward for us to bask in, for we do not know of appreciation and gratitude. We only know what we see and duplicate, like The confidence in his actions, to the love he reserves only for his baby girls.
To try and elaborate words to describe, I would have to ask you this. If you could?, go back and remember what it was like as an infant, being cradled, five feet above the ground. No distinction between the safety of solid ground and the security of "those arms". You look up and two pairs of eyes engage in a intricate conversation only heard on the other side of the cosmos. An aura so loud, yet so gentle envelops you. You hear a whisper.... "I will never let you go. I will keep you safe". Instantly you acknowledge, he is right. There is nothing to fear as long as you are with him. Monsters and demons do not exist, the shadows and the darkness could not be seen with a love so bright. He is, our first true love, our night in shining armor, our hero. To know him is to love him. Then you would most likely, resent him with uncertainty, because his love for us is perceived as selfishness and insensitivity, to the rest of the world.
Daddy once said "I am a selfish man. I know this. Now I am a selfish father and the world will know this." Ya' know.....Daddy's quotes are like a good restaurant you just found, everyone you know hears about it, still few experience it for themselves. We love you Daddy.
May 20, 2012
Our Daddy. Our World. They are one and the same. We don't have many years of experience on this planet, but from what we've experienced, our world would not exist, if our Daddy didn't. While we are awake, Daddy gives us all his attention. Even while we sleep, Daddy is busy taking care of our needs for the following day. Daddy says, "Giving a child everything they want is senseless, giving them everything they need is essential." Daddy doesn't think like most-we've heard the phrase "to each his own" and we were taught to know, not everyone thinks the same. For instance, Daddy would say "Individuality is the key to creativity and creativity is the key to progress.". So we ride on that wave of endless creativity and give you our journey, through our trials of failure and achievement, our thirst for the unknown, our happiness, sorrow, joy, anger, frustration and bliss. We do apologize if we offend. We also take credit If we commend.(that rhymed)
We can only copy from a model. An example, right in front of our noses. It doesn't matter who you are, where you came from, what you do for a living, or the way you live your life, it is not a factor, when it comes to mimicking. We observe, we report. Only when the years accumulate and the reflection of your character, personality and identity, give proof to who you really are. Your defects or attributes can now be seen from an outside view. Daddy knows this and that is why, Daddy is our world.
We experience the smallest wonders to the greatest amazement's because of our Daddy. Our curiosity is satisfied only to open room for more. Daddy says "I will always have an answer for you. If not, I will help you to find it." Daddy has a lot to say, which only scrapes at the surface at an explanation of Daddy's constant barrage of words, sentences, paragraphs, pages, books, libraries and his "ancient scriptures of the mind". He takes the time to think "Does this situation call for a mothers sensitivity and compassion?". Though, I think he doesn't practice it as frequently as he should. Most of the time, it's the, stern, aggressive, tones and actions which strike fear and confidence in us. His strength and power shine through that silk cloak, draped across his iron fist. We see through the delicateness, through the gentleness and see our stone of impenetrable force, which stands watch over us, scarred from the mighty blows of hardship and struggle that we did not-excuse me-The hardship and struggle, that he did not, allow us to endure. He magnifies the gratitude and content for the abilities of his six senses, his limbs, appendages, and shines it outward for us to bask in, for we do not know of appreciation and gratitude. We only know what we see and duplicate, like The confidence in his actions, to the love he reserves only for his baby girls.
To try and elaborate words to describe, I would have to ask you this. If you could?, go back and remember what it was like as an infant, being cradled, five feet above the ground. No distinction between the safety of solid ground and the security of "those arms". You look up and two pairs of eyes engage in a intricate conversation only heard on the other side of the cosmos. An aura so loud, yet so gentle envelops you. You hear a whisper.... "I will never let you go. I will keep you safe". Instantly you acknowledge, he is right. There is nothing to fear as long as you are with him. Monsters and demons do not exist, the shadows and the darkness could not be seen with a love so bright. He is, our first true love, our night in shining armor, our hero. To know him is to love him. Then you would most likely, resent him with uncertainty, because his love for us is perceived as selfishness and insensitivity, to the rest of the world.
Daddy once said "I am a selfish man. I know this. Now I am a selfish father and the world will know this." Ya' know.....Daddy's quotes are like a good restaurant you just found, everyone you know hears about it, still few experience it for themselves. We love you Daddy.
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